You know how it is when you think you've sort of figured out what you're supposed to do in life, make some decisions to move forward, and then the script is just flipped on you? That what you thought was next is placed on the back burner and something else takes its place?
I have been in this uncanny position a few times in the past two years. More so than I had envisioned for myself but I have come to learn that this is just how life works. And the amazing thing is - as scary as some of these events are, they are in themselves, very exciting.
Why are these things scary? Well for one, we don't always know what is going to happen or how successful we may be in this venture. Another nuance comes with destiny - is this what God wants me to do? Is this what I was meant for? What if I do this and miss my chance at something else?
Inevitably, we come to some sort of decision we usually feel is the right one and move forward with it, embracing whatever life throws in along with it. In the weeks and months that follow, we may waver back and forth between whether it was a good or bad decision, but years later we usually figure out it worked toward our advantage.
A few years ago I was well on my way to an exciting journey of faith and though a bit scared, I was excited to embark on this new path and was making plans to move forward with it. Then, out of left field, another opportunity presented itself and although it was something I had been waiting for, I was was entirely unprepared for it to happen at that time. It threw me into a week of uncertainty, but I came out of it with the complete certainty of what decision to make. I can definitely tell you that had I not had the complete confidence of what God wanted me to do, the next 12 months would have been even more challenging than they were. Situations arose where I simply had to cling to the fact that I was in the right place and God would bring me through it. And, of course, He did. In ways I could not even imagine.
Now, there seems to be another type of shift on the horizon. I am starting to realize just why God wanted me to stay here now. I do not really have specifics yet, but I have the overwhelming feeling I am in the right place at the right time. At least for now - and I'm starting to get a vision of what is coming. It's still uncertain but it's definitely scary. Scary because it's exciting. Scary because it could just be something that I'm really going to love.
This is all to say that God is still trying to teach me that His timing is perfect. And that He really does want to bless me exceedingly abundantly above. No matter how many times I tend to forget. Right now I really don't know just how things are going to turn out, but I have every confidence that God is not going to lead me somewhere where He is not going to bring me through. He has proved himself true on this account too many times for me to doubt Him now. No matter how hard things may seem in a few weeks.
So for those of you who are in a holding pattern - or not sure what is coming next - hold out, ask for guidance, and wait to see what He does. If He brought you there, He will get you through. If He did not, He will show you a way out. I for one am very excited to see what He is going to do in our lives.
But my God will supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus. ~ Phillip 4:19
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Just When I Forget Who He Is....
The LORD is my chosen portion and my cup;
you hold my lot.
The lines have fallen for me in pleasant places;
indeed, I have a beautiful inheritance.
(Psalm 16:5-6 ESV)
I read this verse a few weeks ago and thought "this is really cool - I should remember this one". Would that I had over the past week or so! It is simply amazing the ways God leads us and what He has for us sometimes. And mostly when we don't even realize it.
What does it mean that the Lord is my chosen portion and cup? Really? I am claiming Jesus here and thanking God that He has given me Christ. That my cup is full and it will be to overflowing.
But this week the "you hold my lot" part means the most. It is in the times of uncertainty and trial that we go running back to God jumping up and down saying "remember me? remember me?" Well, that may be a bit extreme but you get the point. When there is something going on or something we are trying to accomplish and things aren't going the way we want, it is more than reassuring to know that the God of the universe "holds my lot". In Philly words, He's got my back.
So, then begs the question - why the heck do I worry so much? I'm going its because I'm wired that way but there is a little more to it. Life throws us some pretty big decisions and a curve ball or two. It is then and there when we have to decide if we're going to step up to the plate or just let it go by us. I'm horrible at baseball but I will tell you I'd rather be the one swinging than the one too scared to move my bat. It's all too often I am the latter (not to be confused with batter LOL) but God is working on me.
Ask my family - I used to be scared to buy milk. It's a weird long story but just take it from me that I've come a long way in the scaredy-cat department.
Anyway, back to the verse. I am going to rest in the belief that the lines HAVE fell for me in pleasant places and am looking forward to the beautiful inheritance Sometimes we need to get our worried eyes off the two feet in front of us and take a look up to the One who not only sees the entire path, but who is actually drawing it for us. When we let Him do that, the lines really do fall in pleasant places.
Now, if I could just remember to do this....
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
A Legacy of Grace
Five days before Christmas a very great lady finished her race and walked into the arms of Jesus. She was surrounded by her husband of 60+ years and her nine children. PopPop held her hand and said "I Love You" and she answered him back "I Love You, Too" shortly before she passed away. This woman, Grace Heilman, left behind a husband, nine children and their spouses, 59 grandchildren and assorted significant others, and 32 great-grandchildren (with two more on the way). Family, friends, relatives, and acquaintances all came to pay their respects - most of whom mentioned what a great lady she was. And they were all right. But the amazing thing? I don't think any of us fully comprehend just what an "Amazing Grace" she was. Speaking of "Amazing Grace", it really was her favorite song. PopPop reminded me how one of her favorite lyrics was "When we've been there thousand years....we've only just begun". It's true, I remember her telling us about it and saying "Can you just imagine? 10,000 years and it's just like one day!" Well MomMom, you don't have to imagine it anymore - you're living it!
Because MomMom just didn't leave people behind - she left memories, lessons, and love behind. I don't think one of us grandchildren ever got away from seeing her without a great big hug and a "do you want some ice cream and pretzels?" She loved us all - and even though our family grew in exponential fashion, she didn't change. Her love multiplied right along with the rest of us. And we are a crazy, awesome, energetic bunch - but she never said a bad word about any of us. She may have corrected us and tried to help us through things, but I personally never remember anything bad she ever said about me. Unless you count the time when she said she liked hugging me and my brother best because "we were just like big pillows!" haha - but what can I say - she was right!
Over the last few weeks a lot of our family has been reminiscing about MomMom and all the wonderful things she did or said, or all of the funny things that happened. One of my favorite stories is the one PopPop tells about how he knew MomMom was "the one" for him. They were young and at a church picnic playing softball. It must have been summertime because they were all in their bathing suits. MomMom bent over to field a ball and PopPop said she was wearing a red suit so it looked like a big red heart when she bent over. And he was hooked! I remember when Lynn and Ryan got engaged and I went over to MomMom and PopPops with them when they broke the good news. PopPop told us that story then and had us all laughing. MomMom just looked at him with that big smile she always had for him and said "Oh, Niss....". There are varying reports of the actual truth to that story - but we like to think its true just the same. Because we can all see it happening ;)
Momma reminded so many of us of something during the funeral - MomMom had 59 grandchildren and 32 great-grandchildren and she said all of them were grand! MomMom was like that - she thought the world of each and every one of us and loved us like we were the only ones in the world.
In the midst of all this reminiscing and over a few talks with my mom, I began to realize that MomMom fulfilled some of the scripture she loved so much. There is a lot of talk about being "good Christian women" and "becoming a P31 (proverbs 31 woman)" in our churches, but there are not a lot of real, live, existing examples for us to follow. But, not to worry, we found one. MomMom. Grace Heilman was a real P31 and I would like to show you how.
Proverbs 31: 10-11
Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies. The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil.
Ok, visit PopPop. Ask him if he thinks MomMom was worth more than rubies. If she was rare and priceless. He will vehemently state she was worth more than any of the riches in the world. Then ask him if he trusted her. Not only with taking care of his family and house and finances, but with everything. And fidelity She would never have even dreamed of cheating on him - their love was true and lasting. Just ask him. See what he says. Ask any one of the aunts and uncles for that matter. They'll tell you. And for those of you who cannot ask - take it from a hopeless romantic grandchild - he loved her above anything else and she loved him right back to overflowing.
Verse 12
She will do him good and not evil all the days of her life.
My notes in my Bible says this is for all seasons of life - and no one can deny she did this. She served PopPop all through their marriage with love and commitment. She cooked, cleaned, did 845,687 loads of laundry and took care of the family. She nursed them when they were sick, helped them through childbirth and raising their kids. And for the last five years, MomMom was the main caretaker of PopPop. Due to his health, PopPop was house bound and needed lots of care. Six or some months ago, he suffered a nasty fall and was flat on his back for about five months. Although her kids told her to slow down, she selflessly took care of PopPop - even to where it wore her out. She definitely did him good all the days of her life.
Verse 13
She seeketh wool, and flax, and worketh willingly with her hands.
MomMom loved to take us to pick berries and peaches and such. I know she took a lot of us various different places and I remember she took Tammy and I blueberry picking and maybe even strawberry picking. Berries, peaches, cherries, tomatoes ..she picked them all! As for her hands, only Jesus knows exactly how many meals they prepared, clothes they folded, tears they dried and hands they clasped. MomMom's hands were full of life - literally. She acted as midwife for almost all of us grandchildren, some of the great-grandchildren, and helped out countless other women give birth. If the lines in her hands could only speak I'm sure we would be astounded by the things the "right hand hid from the left"
Verse 14
She is like the merchants' ships; she bringeth her food from afar.
MomMom was a very generous woman and had a heart for those in need. She made meals for those who were sick or grieving helped out at various events, and even used to go grocery shopping for a neighbor who didn't always appreciate her. She catered to a lot of peoples' needs and was often the hands and feet of Jesus to those who needed it.
Verse 15
She riseth also while it is yet night, and giveth meat to her household, and a portion to her maidens.
With a big family, it is almost necessary to rise before the sunrise and start preparing for the day. I remember being at the house on 70th avenue in the big kitchen and watching MomMom rinse out the boys' lunchboxes and line them up for the next day. Momma said that when she was working, she would come home at the end of the day with the rest of the working kids at that time, and PopPop, and MomMom would always have supper ready and waiting for them.
Verse 16
She considereth a field, and buyeth it, with the fruit of her hand she planteth a vineyard.
MomMom always had some sort of a garden growing with vegetables of all sorts. She planted flowers and and had a lot of plants in her house. She loved to help things grow. She passed that along to some of her children as well. Momma loves to grow things and has lots of plants everywhere. I know Uncle Dean has a lot as well. The others may have some and I just don't remember - sorry guys :)
Verse 17
She girdeth her loins with strength, and strengthened her arms.
I'm not sure MomMom ever out-lifted Hulk Hogan or anything, but she was always trying to "lose 10 lbs or so" and did some walking. But I think this verse it a little deeper and is speaking about spiritual strength. MomMom loved many of the Psalms but one of her favorites was Psalm 121. Here is where she found her strength....
I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaven and earth. Psalm 121: 1-2
Verse 18
She perceiveth that her merchandise is good: her candle goeth not out by night.
I'm not sure how it was in the early years, but MomMom was up late a lot that I can remember. She loved when people would come to visit (and often told us how long it had been since our last one ;) and stayed up late talking to us or with PopPop when they were alone. She also would read her Bible every night and every morning. Again, MomMom, you're slaying me here but I promise to do better.
Verse 19
She layeth her hands to the spindle, and her hands hold the distaff.
MomMom always had a sewing machine for as long as I can remember. She made lots of clothes and helped many people make their own as well - including some wedding dresses. She also taught my momma to sew. Mom made lots of our clothes growing up and some of her own as well. She made a beautiful peach dress for the cruise her and Dad went on, as well as a gorgeous red one for Tammy's wedding. Mom also used her sewing prowess to open up her own business - Grace Irene Window Fashions! (and yes, mom is named after MomMom. They are both Grace Irene.)
Verse 20
She stretcheth out her hand to the poor; yea, she reacheth forth her hands to the needy.
MomMom and PopPop were always taking care of people. Whether by showing up and helping someone move, letting people live with them because they had to move, making meals and all sorts of things like that. They also gave to a lot of charities. Where do you think the stuffed bear and stuffed buffalo on the living room table came from? The Indian Youth Association! I really don't think we'll really ever know just how many people they helped through various means, money or otherwise. It really doesn't matter. But what does matter is that we pay it forward. That we use their example and do good to others. For personal glory? Nope. Because Jesus said to help the poor and the needy and that He loved them just as much as the richest man in the world. MomMom and PopPop both would tell you that all day long. So honor them and God and give to those in need. For HIS glory, not yours.
Verse 21
She is not afraid of the snow for her household: for all her household are clothed with scarlet.
I'm not sure how she did it, but I'm sure she came up with interesting ways to make sure all the kids were clothed well, even in the cold weather.
Verse 22
She maketh herself coverings of tapestry; her clothing is silk and purple.
Do you guys remember MomMom's long purple winter coat and big purple hat she used to wear to church? They were beautiful! She really did love purple - and I think that's why Momma loves it too. They both wear it well.
Verse 23
Her husband is known in the gates, where he sitteth among the elders of the land.
Whether in business or in the church, PopPop was well known and held many positions of authority. He worked very hard to provide for MomMom and the rest of the family. However, I often wondered why this verse is in the virtuous woman passage, but I think I figured it out people! You know what they say, "Behind every great man is a great woman"! On a serious note, I did find one of my notes where it says this verse is about how she understands the calling on her life and on that of her husband - and she acts accordingly. MomMom sure did that.
Verse 24
She maketh fine linen, and selleth it: and delivereth girdles to the merchant.
MomMom sure did make a lot of fine things, but knowing her, she would have given them away instead of selling them. And I'm pretty sure she didn't deliver any girdles to the merchant - unless she was taking them back!
Verse 25
Strength and honor are her clothing; and she shall rejoice in time to come.
Character is what makes a person who he or she is. Let's not forget her example to us - she did wear strength I never thought of MomMom as weak. Even the last few weeks when she was confined to a bed, she didn't seem weak. Oh she sure looked weak, but then she would look up and begin to speak and the strength of her years and her faith were behind it. She was a tiny little thing when she passed away - but with a giant heart that never faded away. And honor? Her whole life was an honor - to God. And that is something we should all strive for. It would be honoring her and her life example if we did.
Verse 26
She openeth her mouth with wisdom: and in her tongue is the law of kindness.
Almost everything MomMom said had a lesson behind it, whether she was telling a story, passing along news, or just teaching us something. She never spoke evil of anyone and always searched for the good in others. In this she slays me - I am so glad for her example of this because I fail miserably at it and I'm glad to have known someone who actually did it. And did it well. Maybe she can be one of my angels and help me hold my tongue ;)
Verse 27
She looketh well to the ways of her household, and eateth not the bread of idleness.
Cooking, cleaning, scrubbing loving, nurturing blessing; there were many ways she took care of her household. She was always doing something - even if she was sitting down. She was exercising her thumbs!!
Verse 28
Her children arise up, and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praiseth her.
Just from the pure fact that all nine of them were surrounding her when she went to heaven, not to mention all the lovely things they did or said about her, all of her children do call her blessed. And PopPop? He knows it more than anyone else and will praise her to anyone and everyone.
Verse 29
Many daughters have done virtuously, but thou exceedeth them all.
You know what's funny? I can almost picture Jesus saying these words to MomMom when He took her into heaven. And do I believe He personally came to get her Himself? Absolutely. Without a doubt. He was welcoming one of His most virtuous daughters into His home. I'm bawling here just imagining it, but I truly believe this. She was Grace. She was grace. Personified.
Verse 30
Favor is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the LORD, she shall be praised.
Favor is the opinion of man and beauty will fade, but her countenance shined from within. Her heart shined before others and it shone as beauty. The secret to her virtue was that she feared God, she really did. He provided the increase from there. She did all things to honor God - no matter what earthly person she was actually doing it for. And she shall indeed be praised for that.
Verse 31
Give her of the fruit of her hands; and let her own works praise her in the gates.
I think Solomon was talking about earthly fruits and the gates of the city in this verse and its true that MomMom did receive earthly praise for the works of her hands. But I can only imagine the rejoicing in heaven for one such as she who came through the gates. That she was proclaimed for her works and that she received a load of rewards at the Bema seat.
Grace Irene Richardson Heilman sure did leave a legacy of grace. Not just in actual Graces - because there are a lot of people named after her (Grace Irene (mom), Jaclyn Grace, Kathleen Grace, Graceanne and some others I'm not entirely sure of) - but in love. MomMom did a great many works in her life and they were all to honor the Lord. Not to get her into heaven, because her faith and acceptance of Jesus did that, but to honor her God and to help those that she loved.
During the last few weeks of her life, MomMom needed a lot of care. Many of her children pitched in and served her, slept over, fed her and took care of her needs - basic and otherwise. Every time she asked someone to do something, she said "I'm sorry, I'm sorry". She didn't want to be a burden and she was so used to taking care of things herself, so she felt terrible asking others for help. But, it wasn't a chore to them - it was a pleasure. Melanie and I went to visit MomMom and PopPop one night in early December. We had a nice little visit with both of them and although she couldn't talk much, she asked about us and our lives and how we were doing. She apologized for not getting us snack and wanted to know if we "wanted crackers and cheese or something". We were amazed! This woman who could barely turn over by herself wanted to get us snack. She truly had a servants heart.
One of the nights my mom slept over she was reading MomMom her Bible. She was reading John 14 to her as she thought it was something she would like to hear. She hadn't made it through too much of "In my father's house are many mansions" John 14: 2a before MomMom stopped her and asked her to read Psalm 23. As mom started reading The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. Psalms 23:1, it was like MomMom couldn't wait for her to get to the end. Mom was a little surprised until she realized what she was waiting for. MomMom wanted to hear the last verse. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever. Psalms 23:6. Mom said MomMom could barely speak but she kept repeating that line: "and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever". When Uncle Mart and Uncle Wayne came up, she repeated the same thing to them: "and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever". You know why? Because she knew exactly where she was going. To heaven. To see her Saviour.
Her legacy is also a challenge - for those of us who have been loved and touched by her and her kindness in some way, we are left with the task of "taking up the mantle". Of continuing her work and glorifying God in it. MomMom gave us a lot of love and a lot of examples of how to really become a Proverbs 31 woman. She probably never even realized she was one. She just did it. She lived her life loving her God, her husband, her family and her fellow man. So, her daughters, granddaughters, great-granddaughters, and others - let's do this. Let's take her example and attempt to live a life pleasing to God as a Proverbs 31 woman. Not because the church says so. Not to gain a husband (in some of our cases) and not for personal glory. But because it would glorify our father and we can all become virtuous daughters. And in doing so we would not just be honoring God - we would be lengthening her legacy. A Legacy of Grace.
Because MomMom just didn't leave people behind - she left memories, lessons, and love behind. I don't think one of us grandchildren ever got away from seeing her without a great big hug and a "do you want some ice cream and pretzels?" She loved us all - and even though our family grew in exponential fashion, she didn't change. Her love multiplied right along with the rest of us. And we are a crazy, awesome, energetic bunch - but she never said a bad word about any of us. She may have corrected us and tried to help us through things, but I personally never remember anything bad she ever said about me. Unless you count the time when she said she liked hugging me and my brother best because "we were just like big pillows!" haha - but what can I say - she was right!
Over the last few weeks a lot of our family has been reminiscing about MomMom and all the wonderful things she did or said, or all of the funny things that happened. One of my favorite stories is the one PopPop tells about how he knew MomMom was "the one" for him. They were young and at a church picnic playing softball. It must have been summertime because they were all in their bathing suits. MomMom bent over to field a ball and PopPop said she was wearing a red suit so it looked like a big red heart when she bent over. And he was hooked! I remember when Lynn and Ryan got engaged and I went over to MomMom and PopPops with them when they broke the good news. PopPop told us that story then and had us all laughing. MomMom just looked at him with that big smile she always had for him and said "Oh, Niss....". There are varying reports of the actual truth to that story - but we like to think its true just the same. Because we can all see it happening ;)
Momma reminded so many of us of something during the funeral - MomMom had 59 grandchildren and 32 great-grandchildren and she said all of them were grand! MomMom was like that - she thought the world of each and every one of us and loved us like we were the only ones in the world.
In the midst of all this reminiscing and over a few talks with my mom, I began to realize that MomMom fulfilled some of the scripture she loved so much. There is a lot of talk about being "good Christian women" and "becoming a P31 (proverbs 31 woman)" in our churches, but there are not a lot of real, live, existing examples for us to follow. But, not to worry, we found one. MomMom. Grace Heilman was a real P31 and I would like to show you how.
Proverbs 31: 10-11
Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies. The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil.
Ok, visit PopPop. Ask him if he thinks MomMom was worth more than rubies. If she was rare and priceless. He will vehemently state she was worth more than any of the riches in the world. Then ask him if he trusted her. Not only with taking care of his family and house and finances, but with everything. And fidelity She would never have even dreamed of cheating on him - their love was true and lasting. Just ask him. See what he says. Ask any one of the aunts and uncles for that matter. They'll tell you. And for those of you who cannot ask - take it from a hopeless romantic grandchild - he loved her above anything else and she loved him right back to overflowing.
Verse 12
She will do him good and not evil all the days of her life.
My notes in my Bible says this is for all seasons of life - and no one can deny she did this. She served PopPop all through their marriage with love and commitment. She cooked, cleaned, did 845,687 loads of laundry and took care of the family. She nursed them when they were sick, helped them through childbirth and raising their kids. And for the last five years, MomMom was the main caretaker of PopPop. Due to his health, PopPop was house bound and needed lots of care. Six or some months ago, he suffered a nasty fall and was flat on his back for about five months. Although her kids told her to slow down, she selflessly took care of PopPop - even to where it wore her out. She definitely did him good all the days of her life.
Verse 13
She seeketh wool, and flax, and worketh willingly with her hands.
MomMom loved to take us to pick berries and peaches and such. I know she took a lot of us various different places and I remember she took Tammy and I blueberry picking and maybe even strawberry picking. Berries, peaches, cherries, tomatoes ..she picked them all! As for her hands, only Jesus knows exactly how many meals they prepared, clothes they folded, tears they dried and hands they clasped. MomMom's hands were full of life - literally. She acted as midwife for almost all of us grandchildren, some of the great-grandchildren, and helped out countless other women give birth. If the lines in her hands could only speak I'm sure we would be astounded by the things the "right hand hid from the left"
Verse 14
She is like the merchants' ships; she bringeth her food from afar.
MomMom was a very generous woman and had a heart for those in need. She made meals for those who were sick or grieving helped out at various events, and even used to go grocery shopping for a neighbor who didn't always appreciate her. She catered to a lot of peoples' needs and was often the hands and feet of Jesus to those who needed it.
Verse 15
She riseth also while it is yet night, and giveth meat to her household, and a portion to her maidens.
With a big family, it is almost necessary to rise before the sunrise and start preparing for the day. I remember being at the house on 70th avenue in the big kitchen and watching MomMom rinse out the boys' lunchboxes and line them up for the next day. Momma said that when she was working, she would come home at the end of the day with the rest of the working kids at that time, and PopPop, and MomMom would always have supper ready and waiting for them.
She considereth a field, and buyeth it, with the fruit of her hand she planteth a vineyard.
MomMom always had some sort of a garden growing with vegetables of all sorts. She planted flowers and and had a lot of plants in her house. She loved to help things grow. She passed that along to some of her children as well. Momma loves to grow things and has lots of plants everywhere. I know Uncle Dean has a lot as well. The others may have some and I just don't remember - sorry guys :)
Verse 17
She girdeth her loins with strength, and strengthened her arms.
I'm not sure MomMom ever out-lifted Hulk Hogan or anything, but she was always trying to "lose 10 lbs or so" and did some walking. But I think this verse it a little deeper and is speaking about spiritual strength. MomMom loved many of the Psalms but one of her favorites was Psalm 121. Here is where she found her strength....
I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaven and earth. Psalm 121: 1-2
Verse 18
She perceiveth that her merchandise is good: her candle goeth not out by night.
I'm not sure how it was in the early years, but MomMom was up late a lot that I can remember. She loved when people would come to visit (and often told us how long it had been since our last one ;) and stayed up late talking to us or with PopPop when they were alone. She also would read her Bible every night and every morning. Again, MomMom, you're slaying me here but I promise to do better.
Verse 19
She layeth her hands to the spindle, and her hands hold the distaff.
MomMom always had a sewing machine for as long as I can remember. She made lots of clothes and helped many people make their own as well - including some wedding dresses. She also taught my momma to sew. Mom made lots of our clothes growing up and some of her own as well. She made a beautiful peach dress for the cruise her and Dad went on, as well as a gorgeous red one for Tammy's wedding. Mom also used her sewing prowess to open up her own business - Grace Irene Window Fashions! (and yes, mom is named after MomMom. They are both Grace Irene.)
Verse 20
She stretcheth out her hand to the poor; yea, she reacheth forth her hands to the needy.
MomMom and PopPop were always taking care of people. Whether by showing up and helping someone move, letting people live with them because they had to move, making meals and all sorts of things like that. They also gave to a lot of charities. Where do you think the stuffed bear and stuffed buffalo on the living room table came from? The Indian Youth Association! I really don't think we'll really ever know just how many people they helped through various means, money or otherwise. It really doesn't matter. But what does matter is that we pay it forward. That we use their example and do good to others. For personal glory? Nope. Because Jesus said to help the poor and the needy and that He loved them just as much as the richest man in the world. MomMom and PopPop both would tell you that all day long. So honor them and God and give to those in need. For HIS glory, not yours.
Verse 21
She is not afraid of the snow for her household: for all her household are clothed with scarlet.
I'm not sure how she did it, but I'm sure she came up with interesting ways to make sure all the kids were clothed well, even in the cold weather.
Verse 22
She maketh herself coverings of tapestry; her clothing is silk and purple.
Do you guys remember MomMom's long purple winter coat and big purple hat she used to wear to church? They were beautiful! She really did love purple - and I think that's why Momma loves it too. They both wear it well.
Verse 23
Her husband is known in the gates, where he sitteth among the elders of the land.
Whether in business or in the church, PopPop was well known and held many positions of authority. He worked very hard to provide for MomMom and the rest of the family. However, I often wondered why this verse is in the virtuous woman passage, but I think I figured it out people! You know what they say, "Behind every great man is a great woman"! On a serious note, I did find one of my notes where it says this verse is about how she understands the calling on her life and on that of her husband - and she acts accordingly. MomMom sure did that.
Verse 24
She maketh fine linen, and selleth it: and delivereth girdles to the merchant.
MomMom sure did make a lot of fine things, but knowing her, she would have given them away instead of selling them. And I'm pretty sure she didn't deliver any girdles to the merchant - unless she was taking them back!
Verse 25
Strength and honor are her clothing; and she shall rejoice in time to come.
Character is what makes a person who he or she is. Let's not forget her example to us - she did wear strength I never thought of MomMom as weak. Even the last few weeks when she was confined to a bed, she didn't seem weak. Oh she sure looked weak, but then she would look up and begin to speak and the strength of her years and her faith were behind it. She was a tiny little thing when she passed away - but with a giant heart that never faded away. And honor? Her whole life was an honor - to God. And that is something we should all strive for. It would be honoring her and her life example if we did.
Verse 26
She openeth her mouth with wisdom: and in her tongue is the law of kindness.
Almost everything MomMom said had a lesson behind it, whether she was telling a story, passing along news, or just teaching us something. She never spoke evil of anyone and always searched for the good in others. In this she slays me - I am so glad for her example of this because I fail miserably at it and I'm glad to have known someone who actually did it. And did it well. Maybe she can be one of my angels and help me hold my tongue ;)
Verse 27
She looketh well to the ways of her household, and eateth not the bread of idleness.
Cooking, cleaning, scrubbing loving, nurturing blessing; there were many ways she took care of her household. She was always doing something - even if she was sitting down. She was exercising her thumbs!!
Her children arise up, and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praiseth her.
Just from the pure fact that all nine of them were surrounding her when she went to heaven, not to mention all the lovely things they did or said about her, all of her children do call her blessed. And PopPop? He knows it more than anyone else and will praise her to anyone and everyone.
Verse 29
Many daughters have done virtuously, but thou exceedeth them all.
You know what's funny? I can almost picture Jesus saying these words to MomMom when He took her into heaven. And do I believe He personally came to get her Himself? Absolutely. Without a doubt. He was welcoming one of His most virtuous daughters into His home. I'm bawling here just imagining it, but I truly believe this. She was Grace. She was grace. Personified.
Verse 30
Favor is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the LORD, she shall be praised.
Favor is the opinion of man and beauty will fade, but her countenance shined from within. Her heart shined before others and it shone as beauty. The secret to her virtue was that she feared God, she really did. He provided the increase from there. She did all things to honor God - no matter what earthly person she was actually doing it for. And she shall indeed be praised for that.
Verse 31
Give her of the fruit of her hands; and let her own works praise her in the gates.
I think Solomon was talking about earthly fruits and the gates of the city in this verse and its true that MomMom did receive earthly praise for the works of her hands. But I can only imagine the rejoicing in heaven for one such as she who came through the gates. That she was proclaimed for her works and that she received a load of rewards at the Bema seat.
Grace Irene Richardson Heilman sure did leave a legacy of grace. Not just in actual Graces - because there are a lot of people named after her (Grace Irene (mom), Jaclyn Grace, Kathleen Grace, Graceanne and some others I'm not entirely sure of) - but in love. MomMom did a great many works in her life and they were all to honor the Lord. Not to get her into heaven, because her faith and acceptance of Jesus did that, but to honor her God and to help those that she loved.
During the last few weeks of her life, MomMom needed a lot of care. Many of her children pitched in and served her, slept over, fed her and took care of her needs - basic and otherwise. Every time she asked someone to do something, she said "I'm sorry, I'm sorry". She didn't want to be a burden and she was so used to taking care of things herself, so she felt terrible asking others for help. But, it wasn't a chore to them - it was a pleasure. Melanie and I went to visit MomMom and PopPop one night in early December. We had a nice little visit with both of them and although she couldn't talk much, she asked about us and our lives and how we were doing. She apologized for not getting us snack and wanted to know if we "wanted crackers and cheese or something". We were amazed! This woman who could barely turn over by herself wanted to get us snack. She truly had a servants heart.
One of the nights my mom slept over she was reading MomMom her Bible. She was reading John 14 to her as she thought it was something she would like to hear. She hadn't made it through too much of "In my father's house are many mansions" John 14: 2a before MomMom stopped her and asked her to read Psalm 23. As mom started reading The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. Psalms 23:1, it was like MomMom couldn't wait for her to get to the end. Mom was a little surprised until she realized what she was waiting for. MomMom wanted to hear the last verse. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever. Psalms 23:6. Mom said MomMom could barely speak but she kept repeating that line: "and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever". When Uncle Mart and Uncle Wayne came up, she repeated the same thing to them: "and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever". You know why? Because she knew exactly where she was going. To heaven. To see her Saviour.
Her legacy is also a challenge - for those of us who have been loved and touched by her and her kindness in some way, we are left with the task of "taking up the mantle". Of continuing her work and glorifying God in it. MomMom gave us a lot of love and a lot of examples of how to really become a Proverbs 31 woman. She probably never even realized she was one. She just did it. She lived her life loving her God, her husband, her family and her fellow man. So, her daughters, granddaughters, great-granddaughters, and others - let's do this. Let's take her example and attempt to live a life pleasing to God as a Proverbs 31 woman. Not because the church says so. Not to gain a husband (in some of our cases) and not for personal glory. But because it would glorify our father and we can all become virtuous daughters. And in doing so we would not just be honoring God - we would be lengthening her legacy. A Legacy of Grace.
Monday, October 15, 2012
When the going gets tough....
You know those days where you go into work (wherever that may be for you) thinking about your day ahead and knowing there was a certain list of things that needed to be accomplished? And then, 26 minutes later all hell breaks loose and it just goes downhill for the rest of the day. I, unlike most of the world, happen to have pretty good Mondays because my Tuesdays are crazy (that's a whole nother post), but this Monday sure lived up to its world-wide reputation. A multitude of personnel issues, wrong orders picked, trucking fiascoes you name it, it happened today. But, our job is to make the impossible possible so we find a way to get it done. One way or the other. So, today, when a manager and his foreman both show up in my office at 4:04 pm, I just know it. Some emergency is going on and we're gonna have to find a way to fix it. And there was such an emergency. One of our customers had a forklift - with a load on the forks - tilted backwards in an aisle and we had to find a way to get it back up. So a mad scramble for personnel, trucking, and coordination ensued. There were logistics discussions, engineering conversations, and a slew of getting to people's voicemail before getting some actual answers.
But, guess what happened? My truck driver came back in, the assembled crew made their way out to the customer and we righted their truck back up for them. We found a way. About seven people worked together to find a way to make it happen. One of Raymond's motto's is "Above and Beyond" and call me cheesy but I really believe in that. We do. We strive to go above and beyond for our customers. Now, does it happen every time? Nope. But we sure try our darnedest to find a way around that and get it done. There have been many times where I was at a total loss of how to even approach a situation, let alone find a solution. But thank Jesus - He always helps me do what I need to do. Don't get me wrong - I don't always handle everything with extreme calm and clarity but I do what I can to get it done. I've learned a lot of lessons over the past few years and am trying to apply them in my current situations. Life is a journey and it really is what you make it. I'm just happy to be part of a team that doesn't give up the first time. That, to be totally cliche, when the going gets tough, the tough get going. Cheesy, but y'all know that's just a part of me.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13
But, guess what happened? My truck driver came back in, the assembled crew made their way out to the customer and we righted their truck back up for them. We found a way. About seven people worked together to find a way to make it happen. One of Raymond's motto's is "Above and Beyond" and call me cheesy but I really believe in that. We do. We strive to go above and beyond for our customers. Now, does it happen every time? Nope. But we sure try our darnedest to find a way around that and get it done. There have been many times where I was at a total loss of how to even approach a situation, let alone find a solution. But thank Jesus - He always helps me do what I need to do. Don't get me wrong - I don't always handle everything with extreme calm and clarity but I do what I can to get it done. I've learned a lot of lessons over the past few years and am trying to apply them in my current situations. Life is a journey and it really is what you make it. I'm just happy to be part of a team that doesn't give up the first time. That, to be totally cliche, when the going gets tough, the tough get going. Cheesy, but y'all know that's just a part of me.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13
Saturday, October 13, 2012
The Real Stuff
There are times in my life where I get totally distracted by the things of this world and my focus completely changes. Days (and sometimes weeks) into this, I realize there is something missing in my life. Something big. Something important. What is it? Oh yeah, only the most important thing in my life.....Jesus.
This does not happen on purpose, of course. And it's nothing new. I've done it more times I'd rather admit myself, and people have done it for lifetimes. Work, school, life, friends, selfishiness - there are a myriad of things that command my attention and cause me to distance myself from the only steady thing in my life. The funny thing is - when things start to go wrong, it still takes me a few days to figure out what the heck my problem is.
More often than not, it is failure, defeat or heartache that drives me back to the place where I really belong. But sometimes, it is the glimpse of something good, something pure, that makes everything else seem cheap and tarnished. A real friend, people who care about me - really care - and who love the Lord. When I am in that place, I feel just what it is that I've been missing. It's pure, it's real and it's truth. People talk about fellowship of the saints and how we should surround ourselves with godly people. There is definitely a difference.
I'm not talking about Sister Christian, holy roller, I'm holy and you should be too people - I'm talking about those who are real, who are for real, and who love me for who I am.
Now.....I just have to remember this so I don't screw up as long the next time.
This does not happen on purpose, of course. And it's nothing new. I've done it more times I'd rather admit myself, and people have done it for lifetimes. Work, school, life, friends, selfishiness - there are a myriad of things that command my attention and cause me to distance myself from the only steady thing in my life. The funny thing is - when things start to go wrong, it still takes me a few days to figure out what the heck my problem is.
More often than not, it is failure, defeat or heartache that drives me back to the place where I really belong. But sometimes, it is the glimpse of something good, something pure, that makes everything else seem cheap and tarnished. A real friend, people who care about me - really care - and who love the Lord. When I am in that place, I feel just what it is that I've been missing. It's pure, it's real and it's truth. People talk about fellowship of the saints and how we should surround ourselves with godly people. There is definitely a difference.
I'm not talking about Sister Christian, holy roller, I'm holy and you should be too people - I'm talking about those who are real, who are for real, and who love me for who I am.
Now.....I just have to remember this so I don't screw up as long the next time.
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
Moments That Matter
Do you ever find yourself caught up in a pattern of pettiness or just plain meaningless conversations with people? It doesn't matter if it's friends, family, classmates, coworkers, etc....you have good conversations - but they just don't mean anything. I seem to be caught in such a rut. There are many people I speak with (especially during the work week) about a great many things. And that's all well and good, really. We need to create and maintain relationships and to do so means communicating with them. My problem is I get so caught up in the things of this world: sports, movies, life, family, work, etc, etc, etc. Again, all well and good. But when this is all I dwell on, well then there's a problem. Because then, I am wasting opportunities.
When we were in Ireland this summer, we had a few very meaningful conversations and some of the team were saying about how good it was to be around like-minded people and have good "meaty" (as in substantial) talks. I remember being a bit convicted about my lack of them back home, and then quickly dismissed it thinking that I would be bored after awhile if that's all we talked about. This is a perfect example of how my flesh takes over and throws out anything good. Bored, Kim? Really?? In having conversations about God and the kingdom and learning how to survive this world? Lord knows I need all the help I can get in that area (I'm not being disrespectful here - He does know!)
Last night we had a family dinner at my sister's house celebrating my brother as he is moving away in a few weeks. My siblings and I (and extended sibling haha) sat around a campfire and had a really meaningful conversation about ourselves, our experiences, what God is doing in our lives, and what we feel He is leading us to do. It was one of those moments seemingly frozen in time...where, for a few hours, we were edifying and being edified. It was sanctioned and beautiful. Corny as it may sound, that's how I felt about it.
So, as these things often do, it lead me to think about me and my life and my lack of "real" conversations and what I should do to change that. Don't get me wrong, the NFL is starting this week, the NHL is in threat of a lockout, I have to make my pool picks, and I still want to see the Dark Knight Rises. There are still awesome conversations to be had and they will happen. Just watch out, we will be praying for opportunities to share and glorify Jesus.
Try it out sometime...it may sound boring, but I can promise such conversations have the potential to change your life. Think about it.
When we were in Ireland this summer, we had a few very meaningful conversations and some of the team were saying about how good it was to be around like-minded people and have good "meaty" (as in substantial) talks. I remember being a bit convicted about my lack of them back home, and then quickly dismissed it thinking that I would be bored after awhile if that's all we talked about. This is a perfect example of how my flesh takes over and throws out anything good. Bored, Kim? Really?? In having conversations about God and the kingdom and learning how to survive this world? Lord knows I need all the help I can get in that area (I'm not being disrespectful here - He does know!)
Last night we had a family dinner at my sister's house celebrating my brother as he is moving away in a few weeks. My siblings and I (and extended sibling haha) sat around a campfire and had a really meaningful conversation about ourselves, our experiences, what God is doing in our lives, and what we feel He is leading us to do. It was one of those moments seemingly frozen in time...where, for a few hours, we were edifying and being edified. It was sanctioned and beautiful. Corny as it may sound, that's how I felt about it.
So, as these things often do, it lead me to think about me and my life and my lack of "real" conversations and what I should do to change that. Don't get me wrong, the NFL is starting this week, the NHL is in threat of a lockout, I have to make my pool picks, and I still want to see the Dark Knight Rises. There are still awesome conversations to be had and they will happen. Just watch out, we will be praying for opportunities to share and glorify Jesus.
Try it out sometime...it may sound boring, but I can promise such conversations have the potential to change your life. Think about it.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Wisdom and Learning
I have a billion books laying around that I have either read, re-read, or am "going to get to that one" for my reading pleasure. Every once in awhile, one seems to just "show up" just when I need it. Such an event just happened to me the other day.
Michael Warden is one of my favorite authors. He is a life coach and a mentor and one fine day I just may do one of his programs. I have one of his devotional books and it is one that I really enjoy - he is more so on the point for real-life events than many. Here is an excerpt from the book that shook my world the other day. And just because it was applicable and right on time. Coincidence? I think not.
Jesus replied, " You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand".
John 13:7
Wisdom and learning come not from experience, but from our reactions to it. Learning from experience is a matter of choice. The nature of the experience is irrelevant; it is the attitude of the heard that determines what we get out of it. The lessons from experience are learned slowly, over time, like a seed planted in the ground but when the plant finally bears fruit - when we finally understand - we are permanently changed.
Not everyone who goes through an experience will respond well, however. Some will simply forget about it - their seed is stolen away. Some will interpret the experience wrongly, or fail to apply the lesson to their lives - their seed is choked out by other concerns. But some will receive the lesson implanted, and they will be changed. Learning to be teachable in the midst of any experience - whether pleasant or painful - is the heart of wisdom.
Jesus uses experience to sift our hearts and separate out for Himself those whose hearts are teachable and wiling. Experience beautifies the hearts of those who are humble and hardens the hearts of those who demand their own way. It's a decision of the heart. Do not resist Him, but commit yourself to remain moldable in His hand. ~Michael Warden
Makes you think a bit about what to do in the midst of your experiences, doesn't it? It's very humbling to think that He gives us this choice - and waits with open arms for us to bring them to Him. Simply amazing.
Michael Warden is one of my favorite authors. He is a life coach and a mentor and one fine day I just may do one of his programs. I have one of his devotional books and it is one that I really enjoy - he is more so on the point for real-life events than many. Here is an excerpt from the book that shook my world the other day. And just because it was applicable and right on time. Coincidence? I think not.
Jesus replied, " You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand".
John 13:7
Wisdom and learning come not from experience, but from our reactions to it. Learning from experience is a matter of choice. The nature of the experience is irrelevant; it is the attitude of the heard that determines what we get out of it. The lessons from experience are learned slowly, over time, like a seed planted in the ground but when the plant finally bears fruit - when we finally understand - we are permanently changed.
Not everyone who goes through an experience will respond well, however. Some will simply forget about it - their seed is stolen away. Some will interpret the experience wrongly, or fail to apply the lesson to their lives - their seed is choked out by other concerns. But some will receive the lesson implanted, and they will be changed. Learning to be teachable in the midst of any experience - whether pleasant or painful - is the heart of wisdom.
Jesus uses experience to sift our hearts and separate out for Himself those whose hearts are teachable and wiling. Experience beautifies the hearts of those who are humble and hardens the hearts of those who demand their own way. It's a decision of the heart. Do not resist Him, but commit yourself to remain moldable in His hand. ~Michael Warden
Makes you think a bit about what to do in the midst of your experiences, doesn't it? It's very humbling to think that He gives us this choice - and waits with open arms for us to bring them to Him. Simply amazing.
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