somebody get a manual please???

ok, so can i vent a little? singleness should come with its own manual. or rather, there should be a manual for unsingle people - to learn how to be around single people.

no, this is not the usual singleness stinks, i wanna be in a relationship issue, this is for real. seriously, i think unsingle people either block out or willingly forget what its like to be single. it's not that they really do it on purpose, but they kinda don't know what to do with you. after the hey-how-are-yas, what do we have to relate to one another? while the married/parent crowd talks about their homes, significant others, kids, etc...and they don't know what to even ask single people about. their lives are so past they can't even recall what it was like. no wonder single people go on about clubs, drinking games, new crush, etc, etc. they're just trying to fit in and relate.

for now, i'm going to forget about the fact that i haven't been with so-and-so for the last 10 years of my life and am living the dream, i'm gonna buy a new cell phone and plan a vacation.

then write a manual.

Provision

I have this really bad habit of getting myself in really impossible situations. Some things are more dire than others and I had a doozy the other day. I made an error in my personal accounting (i have never been good at math) and was about to have a major problem on my hands. I tried to fix it with two different establishments, but to no avail. I yet again went running to God with my issues, and He provided a way out in a manner that I didn't see coming. Sometimes I feel like I treat Him as an almight band-aid, but yet He knows me. And He still loves me. And provided a way out yet again. For that, I am truely thankful.

a mouse of a night

so my roommates and i thought we had a mouse last week. apparently they had seen evidence - chewed food left out and one of their friends had actually seen one near our stove from her chair in the living room. so, we decided to set a trap. one of us can set traps ( i have a few very sore fingers to attest to the fact that i cannot ) and one of us cannot stand the sight or sound or barely the thought of mice in the apartment. so, me being the wonderful person that i am (and the new roomie on the block) is now in charge of mouse disposal.

we caught our first one last week. i had to get up at 9am on a Saturday so the one roomie wouldn't freak if we had a dead mouse in our kitchen. so i woke to my cell phone alarm, felt for my glasses and padded out the the kitchen to assess the damage through the slits of my eyes that actually open at that time on a Saturday.

lo, and behold, there was a mouse in the trap. so what the heck was i gonna do with it? it had to be out of the house before my roommate saw it. so, i winged it off our balcony into a very thankful bed of weeds and brambles. our mouse was never heard from again.

but the last few nights, we thought we heard something again. i definetely was rudely awakened on Sunday morning by something scratching in my wall. i was not very happy. especially when it woke me up again at 9.

so tonight, after dinner, we set another trap. i kinda forgot about it until i heard the trap go off. i was on the couch making fun of american idol contestants with my roommate. she looked at me and i set off to do my duty of disposing of the mouse. as i turned on the kitchen light, i realized that the thing was still moving! Gross - even for me. after a lot of hysterics from the other two, i waited awhile and then sent the second mouse to its weedy burial grounds.

the saga continues.

a bit overwhelmed

do you ever feel that life is happening around you? that you are missing something so very important? (and it would help if you could put your finger on it) sure, there are great and wonderful things going on and you are being blessed, but there is this sense that you are meant for so much more.

it's a plea to rise above the mediocrity. to become what you think you can become. to rise above the crowd and do what you were made to do.

it's out there. you can do it. find your purpose and fulfill it.